Piano Fantasy

I am sitting at work right now while all of the fourth graders are at an assembly and decided it would be a great time to blog today. I knew I would have an hour to myself during the day so I decided to bring some boring geology reading with me (even though I have a great novel). If you know me really well you know I could care less about geology and everything that has to do with it. I think I was born with this natural hatred for learning about the earth and how it works because I seriously have hated for as long as I can remember.

So as you can imagine, I was dreading doing this reading assignment. I decided to put on some music while I read to help focus my mind a little bit and as I was looking through my iPod I came across William Joseph's album, Within. Researchers say that classical music helps the brain absorb more information and I am a sole believer in this so I always have a classical something on in the background. The only problem in my situation is that I am so familiar with my classical selections that it does me no good to listen to it. I always find myself singing the different parts or getting totally lost in the music.

Today I just happen to really fall into the music during Piano Fantasy. I absolutely love this piece because secretly I'm obsessed with piano music. Someday I want to take piano lessons and learn how to play at least the hymns and primary music for my kids someday. I am just so fascinated with pianists and how their fingers move so quickly and in different time with one another. This fascination comes solely from the fact that my hands can't do that whatsoever. Maybe someday though my brain will let me accomplish my goal of learning to play the piano.

For right now, I will stick to listening to Piano Fantasy and keep dreaming of my own Piano Fantasy. My day started out a little shaky, but has been brightened by the talents of a young man named William Joseph. Thank you William for bringing a smile to my face and warming my heart.

To hear this piece visit: Piano Fantasy

Family

I just needed to do a quick post about how grateful I am for family. My amazing mom and sister knew I was at the end of my rope this weekend and stepped in for an intervention. I seriously owe my current sanity and happiness to them. They willingly (almost with force) came over and cleaned my entire house! I seriously owe them so much because I just couldn't do it and knew it wouldn't happen until Jonah was over if it wasn't for their help. So a big THANK YOU to them.

I am just so glad that we are put here on earth in families because I seriously don't know what I would do without mine. My mom makes us dinner every Sunday and helps us out in any way she can. My whole family is just so supportive and loving all the time. I'm thankful for a Heavenly Father that loved us enough to put us in families because they make the world a beautiful place. Anyway...

Thankfully the sun is shining today and it's going to be a beautiful day! Thanks for reading :)

Out of Control

Lately my life just feels completely out of control. Contributing factors:

-online classes with no professors for help
-new night class with even more homework and now less time to complete my other existing homework
-part time job
-full time calling that takes work during the week
-a house that can't stay clean-no dishwasher or time to clean up
-self-esteem that keeps lowering everyday
-husband that is consumed by work every second of the day

Just to name a few. I know I sound like a total complainer lately, and I'm sorry to any of my readers. It's just hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when it seems like I can't get on top of anything. And the reason it's so hard for me to see the light is because I have totally fallen off the spiritual train. I can't tell you the last time I read my scriptures, or said my prayers. I keep telling myself that today I'm gonna get back on track and I never do. I'm sick of being the weak person that I have been my entire life-I just don't know how to change. Maybe when we get our lives back in 3 weeks I will be able to fix a lot of my complaints and problems I create for myself. I just need to figure out how to make the Lord a priority in my life again.

Not Quite Normal

I decided today that I am ready to have my body back and normal again.

I have had a headache for 5 days now that just won't go away with medicine.
None of my clothes fit-old ones too small and maternity too big.
My hair is multiplying like no tomorrow.
Skin is getting back to normal now.

Yet everything is not quite normal. Ugh!

Unfortunately for me, I haven't gotten to the hardest stage yet. And I still have approximately 162 days until I can even start to try and get my old, normal self back. A baby is worth it right?